the lil' sweet things of life are sometimes just right in front of you.-----<3-----<3-----training didn't really turn out that well for me.everything was so disorganised and it was chaotic. i suppose it was another confirmed evidence of how inefficient i am. BLEH. :/anyway, looking on the brighter side of life,I FAILED MY BIO AND PHYSICS TEST!not a pretty good thing, but i finally finally knew what are my weakest subjects.oh well, sounds like i've got pretty much of catching up to do now. anyway, edlyn was walking me home today, practically to the bus stop.and she yadda-ed about how they spent jocelyn's birthday together with jessica...my old friends.well, blame me for being so sensitive, but i felt hurt. did they even forget about me?and they didn't even tell me?and i didn't even know she had a boyfriend, her first kiss, and a lot of other issues.thanks for reminding me what a bad friend i am.man, they don't have to rub it in, do they?as much as i wanna be part of them and join them in their endless gossiping, but something doesn't feel right.gossiping is never what i'd do, i mean, especially about boys and brad pitt with his children thingy with angelina jolie.all the pacts i've made in sec 2 with them,i guess it's never going to come true. it feels weird. you see the friend you've seated with last year.you say hi.she says hi.then we just walk off.fine, alright, i admit it, i'm sad and a little hurt, alright?i'm sad that they shared everything within themselves,and i wasn't even informed of it?and furthermore, i'm damn frustrated with myself.why am i so bothered over such a little thing?i really hate how emotions affect my mood and thinking.damn it. -----<3sometimes i really want to stop pretending and be that quiet girl i've been back then.