Saturday, September 19, 2009
11:57 PM

take me away, a secret place.
a sweet escape, take me away.
--twilight chapter eighteen--

dear god.
for the first time,
i feel unsure.

When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
10:29 PM

watching titanic still makes me wanna cry.
--twilight chapter eleven--

we watched Titanic on DVD today.
and well, i think it's still an absolutely great movie even though it was filmed so far back then.
i peeked at my mom and dad, and trust me, they look really funny.
my mother was all red-eyed and teary, and my dad was like giving her the what-the-hell face.
HAHA! hilarious shit man. :D guess i inherited my emotional genes from mommy!
then we had this great dinner, with chilli and black pepper crabs cooked to celebrate my birthday!
man. the taste of affection and warmth is seriously too damn good and addictive.
then my favourite uncle asked this question:
eh! we celebrate your birthday for you! what are you gonna give us in return!

i thought for a moment. and i realised that i didn't know what to give them in return.
being filial?
cook them dinner someday?

then my dad answered for me. i thought that answer was scary-cool.
he said:
aiyah! next time she fly helicopter and send you all to wherever you wanna go! simple like that mah!

woah. okay. honestly, i never expected my dad to answer that for me.
but it certainly sounds good.
now my dad has sparked something in me.
and that's a pretty awesome feeling.

When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
9:03 PM

but you can have, what's left of me.

this week was pretty good. been to east coast, took the rocks in  me out, and boy, i feel way lighter. just want to say thanks to edlyn and jocelyn. they're been there for me when i really need it. and whipped cream isn't that bad afterall, thanks edlyn, for exposing me to a whole new world of chocolate frauppes. :D earlier this week we celebrated hazirah's birthday, and it was really great that she enjoyed it. i'm sure pastamania would be a memory mark for me. :) 

and bowling! woohoos man! caught up with cousins at downtown east to bowl to celebrate mainey's 18th birthday. had 2 strikes, not that bad for a beginner huh. :) and i think my aunt's bird nest is seriously deliciously nice. i would wanna have more of it. :) it feels good to have expensive stuff in your mouth, but not like chewing a diamond ring or something. yuck.

anyway, i'm gonna learn boxing. :D hell yeah, boxing. it's pretty good to destress, and i've already made my own punching bag with flour and rubbery material and best of all, it's ready to punch. hell yeah. i'll need that for a long, long time. 

ciao guys. i love you all. 

When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
11:08 PM

turn the music up yo.

sometimes, i admire my dad for being able to tolerate my mother. i guess that's called compromising. i mean, i could tell that he was really angry with my mother, but his tone betrayed his feelings. and mom couldn't even sense that he was seeing red. 

but anyway, thanks dad, thanks for not pushing the matter. you know mom, she's always like this.

releases sigh. but i'm glad that i have my mom and papa. great big people with furry red hearts. :D

for the past few days i've been mugging hard, i suppose, but occasionally having my fair share of fun! :D haha, girls' night out was immensely enjoyable, and everything was just...perfect. nice, i like my life. :)

next week, school's gonna be the no.1 place i'm gonna spend, can't doubt that i wouldn't like it, because, i need those extra lessons, especially history and physics. PHYSICS! damn. been so long since i've touched those notes. and i feel bad for mrs lau, because, i don't happen to have a photographic memory and remember the dates and stuff and it's soooooooo many dates. my mind's going crazy, but i'm not quite following.

today was kinda interesting, actually. :D went over to my grandma's house in aljunied to have a dinner, and all my aunts were there! yay! my relationship with them improved greatly because i made the effort to make all of them roses for mothers' day. :DD:D:D:D: yeah, i love it.
so, we had dinner together, and we had quite a handful of topics to talk about, and somehow it lead to relationships. then, there came the tsunamis of advices and the dos and donts of relationships, and you-know-what. no, not sex, but something else. 

i must admit that i was kinda happy, because it's actually a nice topic to talk about. my parents and my aunts and i myself were really engrossed talking, and to hear my mom and dad giving comments about this made me feel like wow, they're so that age yet they know a handful. but well, with age comes experience, yeah? 

afterwhich we talked about travelling. HELL YEAH. TRAVELLING! 


currently my plan is to travel in taiwan for about 2 weeks with my grandma (holy cow, she's quite an adventurer even in her late 70s) and my favourite 3rd aunt, a really humorous and lively lovely lady. my grandma says it's going to be damn cold, but no fear grandma! i'm gonna engulf you in my embrace mwahahahhahaha. 

gee, i sound evil. *smirks* but no worries, hey, i'll look after you grandma. :D:D taiwan is a beautiful gorgeous country, with their rich heritage and culture, and we have a similar background, majority of the peeps there are chinese, so locating signs and getting our way through there will be piece of cake, i hope. just pray that we all wouldn't get lost in the MRT system :D and besides, my dad has connections there, so we can most probably bunk in their homes, and boy, their homes are like mansions. WHEEE. plenty of rooms with really nice breathtaking views. 

best of all, it's carefree and easy.HAHAHAAH. yeay. love it, gonna love it, and am already loving it. :)


When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
11:00 PM

here's my new blog, and probably the most techno blog i've ever had. :D
here it is, ladies and gents!
hurry, cause i'm deleting this soon.
told you.
everything's starting afresh.

When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
Monday, October 27, 2008
1:40 PM

no image available
(boy, that sucks)
like as if she'll rot to death if we shared bags.
yeah yeah sure thing man, you can have the bag.
like i'd want it in the first place.
but what the hell, i'm upset because my sister doesn't want to share her bag with me.
zhang jiaxuan! it's just a stupid bag with hearts all over it and it's ten bucks.
so what? it's just a bag, a bag that makes you look absolutely horrid and disgusting.
BUT WHY AM I SO FREAKING PISSED THAT SHE DOESN'T WANT TO SHARE HER BAG WITH ME?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
never mind.
i've got my own stuff to strut about.
childish immature jackie zhang.
stop being like a little girl who just bawls when she doesn't get her stuff and GROW UP!
you're FIFTEEN, for goodness sake!
think like an adult, and start acting like a disciplined woman, at least.
get over that bag, it's only a bag, and it's not like that bag is EVERYTHING in the world.
so just shut the hell up, make up your own mind, and get over it.
feels good to lecture myself.
i'm mad.
but i still love my sister.
i really do.

When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
11:19 PM

i'm gonna do what it takes to unlove you.
-elise estrada
which means --> DING DING DING!FREE DAY!
i've decided how to spend it already. HAHA. and it'll just be me alone, nobody else.
sometimes, you need some time alone. that's all it really matters.
JOCELYN! you know that bad boy romance you've been anticipating for so long! i've only done the FIRST chapter.
HAHA. don't 'tsk' me man, hahahha, i'm having no inspirations lately. =(
but hey, don't worry! i'll get them in no time. :D
and of course, i'm pretty happy today, more like glad!
what a great big wondrous achievement! and HEY, i've finished my chinese and english holiday homework. :D
SUPER PROUD OF MYSELF! good job girl, way to go! 
and i can't wait for 5th november! tadaaaaaaaaaaa!
that's when i can ogle at super duper hot pilots with cool sunglasses that totally shows off the masculine side of them. well wait, they already have a masculine side.
BUT OH WELL! they're just that...sigh, gorgeous.
and it seems like i'm not getting my video cam anymore, since lee kuan yew said that singapore's economy will only revive 3 to 5 years later.
so, that's like, what, when i'm...20 years old?
and probably i can only get my cellphone when i'm 2o too.
HAHAHHA. well well anyway hmmm, my sister's getting her hair rebonded, since my cousins say it's kinda cak-cak (rough)
and maybe it's time for me to get a new haircut. :D
and guess what! my parents made up after a quarrel yesterday! YAY! i'm so proud of them.
for a moment, i thought everything would be over. but it wasn't. so that was a really big big relief. 
i've got a big plan for tomorrow, which is to prepare an english breakfast for my family!!!
with freshly squeezed orange juice..
nice scrambled eggs with cheese sausages from IKEA! and probably toast with kaya and melted butter.
oooooohhhhh. boy, i'm getting quite hungry.
hopefully they'll find it nice, because this is the first time in my 15 years of life i'm doing such thing. :D
i'm just so glad i've got everything i wanted, which i worked for.
i'm just glad that i'm living the life that i want. 
i mean, who wouldn't want to live in a big big big mansion with swimming pools and marbled floors and polished statues...jacuzzis....a mini-bar...a fridge full of ice-cream and other sinful delights.
but then, there's nothing more comfortable than snuggling with my sister in her mattress and stealing away her soft pillow =P
sorry sis, your pillow is just really too comfortable.
right now, right here, i wish time could stop. and just let me relive it again, and again, and again.
is that too much to ask for?

When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.

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Criminal Records

pulled dad's leg hair to get attention
kissed a car and a tomato
actually prayed hard to get to EM1
(dang, that was stupid)
love my cousins a lot! :)
needs a lamborghini roadster :DD
actually drowned once, (almost)
hates handphones, tracking devices...
loves GEOGRAPHY!!! <3333
FRANZ FERDINANZ and HITLER are da bombs!!! <33333
loves history, DUHH :)
hates jewelleries -_-
falling in love with skinnies :D
HEROES DA BOMB!!!! <333333
ah, i just love hollywood stuff *grins*

To-Do Crimes

get what i desire for mid years
just stay focused.
complete all revision by this week
go do something crazy for june holidays
take part in next year's parade<33333
and just hope that i'll be able to have more overseas opportunities.



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